My name is Jason Biddle and I am in the construction industry residing outside of Minneapolis, Minnesota. After years of drinking, drug addiction, infidelity and treatment programs, I found Christ in 2011 but never fully surrendered everything to him. There were things I wanted to hold on to. Things I thought I could handle on my own.
The next 6 years were a roller coaster ride with mixes of sobriety and slips.
In March of 2017 after a shoulder surgery, I fell hard back into my addiction of drugs and alcohol. Hiding my and drinking and using became a full time job. Lies and deception from family and friends followed by shame and guilt was eating me up.
This would lead to my downfall and rock bottom.
In mid-September of 2017, I prayed out to God and asked for help. I desperately told God he was going to have to give me a DUI or other legal consequence to get me to stop. I asked God to intervene because I was so physically dependent on drugs and alcohol that I couldn’t stop…no matter what.
On September 29, 2017, while my wife was out of town with some friends, I stayed home with my 7-year-old son and 4-year-old daughter. I remember ordering a pizza, mixing a couple different drugs and a drink then nothing else until 6 days later in the hospital. I had a drug overdose/seizure. My children had seen me on the floor and were helpless to assist in any way. My son had to take care of his sister that night and help would not arrive until the next morning after my son found my phone in my back pocket and was able to call for help.
The doctors would tell my wife Britney, to start getting things in order, that the chances of recovery were nearly impossible. If I were to wake up I would most likely have major complications. My brain scan showed major brain damage and trauma and I was in critical condition on life support and my internal organs were shutting down.
God allowed me to wake on the 6th day. I was coherent and alert but was not able to use my right arm and had no feeling in my back.
By Day 4, I was doing box jumps in physical therapy and was progressing abnormally fast. That night the doctors ordered a brain scan and the next morning shared the results with family, friends and other resident doctors and staff. They showed us the brain scan that had been taken upon my arrival to the hospital. The initial scan showing significant trauma was compared side by side with the second brain scan. It was like the seizure never happened. All of the damage that should have taken months or even years to heal was gone. They told friends and family that this was not medically possible and the only conclusion they could draw was that it was a miracle.
On October 24th, 2017, I was released from the hospital and checked into a Christian Addiction Ministry called Redemption House. It was during my 90-day stay there that I learned my addictions were a condition of the heart. I learned about idols and dug into what idols I was putting first in my life – and in front of God. An idol is anything you place in front of God. (My idols were pride, control, money and people pleasing). When these idols were not fulfilled or gratified, a drink or a drug would satisfy that emptiness that was left inside until a physical dependency was formed. God created us to worship Him. If we are not worshiping Him, we are worshiping something (money, possessions, collections, careers, shopping, technology etc.) I was always trying to find something to satisfy me or fill a void. I learned that the missing link was God. And the bible is clear… that the only way to him is a relationship with Jesus Christ.
I became friends with a couple musicians in the house during my stay there. I didn’t play an instrument but could find the keys on a piano of the notes that were in my head. And between my singing to a musician and the talents of those musicians, songs were created fairly quick. Words poured out on paper for me.
One of my other friends (my sons drum teacher) was also an audio producer. He and I recorded multiple songs over a 16-month period and many other musicians, from local worship bands who heard of the project, contributed to the album. My first album titled Redemption House, released November 9th 2019 along with the first Music video, “Faithful and Just”. My hope in releasing this album is to share the gospel and my testimony through social media and music ministry.
My wife, Britney, and I now have full restoration in our marriage and have been asked to speak and share our testimony to other addicts or family members of addicts around our area.
I have been redeemed by the grace of God…literally brought back from death to life. God would not let me go. He had to completely break me before I would finally listen.
